Progress on MH Services Front....Missing trains or am I at the wrong station

Had the meeting with care co-ordinator today.

Spoke with a friend earlier about my views that I should say I don't want to see them anymore because the meetings seem irrelevant to me. Friend's advise was to stick with seeing CC because I might actually need something from them and giving them an excuse to take me off their books just means should I need something (which may or may not prove helpful in the future) I would be even less likely to get it as I would be filed in outakes (sub section 'recovered or missing - not our problem anymore').

So the meeting went ahead.

Content:

Problems and their advise for me to write up a problem solving chart. I sat there trying to look as attentive as possible, whilst the memories of many a chart from my training days came back to me. To say I am charted out would be an understatement.

Advised to give people in my life ultimatums (although I need to disguise them so they don't look like ultimatums)

Advised to contact Dad's care team (any member I can manage to get hold of) and tell them I am concerned that he might be having a relapse. Yeah that should do the trick alright, particulary as Dad has made it clear to me that he wants to keep his contact with MH team separate to his contact with me. I haven't worked out why..then again I haven't worked out much of anything that is going on with Dad right now. I don't need further complications of breaking trust or acting like a snitch.

Conclusion

When they left, I thought "Fuck that". I will rattle along aided by lozees and do whatever seems appropriate for me at the time.

Thank Heavens for Em. She, and her fella, bought me a Subway bagette and cookie and then we went round to Dad's together and a pretty good time was had by all. A case of strength in numbers.

This song seems kind of appropriate: