Blogging and other Dilemmas

I ripped that title from a book of poems I had published (NB by a small local publishing company) yonks ago. I swapped 'Life' for 'Blogging' which is a sort of ironic twist on how my life actually is. Ha!

Blogging can become a dilemma because although there is an incredible freedom to it, if one chooses to use it, there is also a level of responsiblity (again if one chooses to use that). Now, I am rarely one to let concensus dictate what I write nor do I worry too much what people think of me because I am what I am and I am not going to hide behind a fake persona. However, since the lady at the BBC contacted me I have been in a bit of a quandry. I passed on some details of other blogs to her and made contact with people I had never come into contact with before and that got me to thinking 1) Actually why should I choose people?...everyone who blogs is as valid as anyone else and it is only a matter of either personal taste or, on this occasion, looking to provide some balance that was the reason I put certain blogs forward for viewing 2) Who the fekk am I to be on a radio programme anyway?

As I explained, to the lady, there are so many MH blogs out there (more articulate, witty or interactive than mine) and they all should be given equal exposure. So I felt a heel for doing what I did but I hope that in doing what I did, I was as fair as I could be. I didn't go for soft options for me but tried to be objective. Ho hum!

I have agreed to be interviewed, which will then be recorded and form part of a programme on blogging for the Radio 4 'All In The Mind' series. Scary stuff. Totally out of my comfort zone but,if anything, I want to use this opportunity to promote blogland as another avenue for people with mental illness to express themselves and interact (as much as they wish) within. I really don't need to do this, and as I said before, personally it won't do me any favours. Nor do I want it to. I am not being humble here...I really want more democracy for people with mental illness and maybe this will be a very tiny part of encouraging that. I dunno and I sense that not only will I make a complete pratt of myself (which is nothing new) but will come away all in a pickle because I forgot to say something really important.

The pozzie is that the BBC will organise a taxi for me there and back and a friend can accompany me. I really couldn't get there without support in place.

So now I need to get with another programme. I have a pampering session booked through the carers' group. Last month I had reflexology and was hoping for the same again. However, evil dwarves a go go, have had hives on my feet and therefore reflexology is out of the question (would die of embarrasment). Perhaps a back massage instead.

And even more importantly my daughter and her fella are coming round later and they are staying over. We are having a curry and DVD night. Great stuff.